Holidays

Well the holidays weren't the best, but I didn't expect them to be. Right after I woke up I felt depressed. Within minutes I was crying because I knew that there should be more of us to celebrate the holidays. Throughout the day I had break downs, but I also had lots of laughs. We stayed in Waco this year. It was very low key for us since we weren't really in the spirit this year. The kids enjoyed it. Jack will be two in a week. I can't believe he's turning into a "big boy". His favorite book right now is "The Foot Book" by Dr. Suess. I have read it about 20 times today, lol. Really not a whole lot is going on at the moment. I don't know if I've mentioned about Matt's job. The company that fired him asked to rehire, but Matt turned it down. It's official that we will be in Waco for awhile. Our laptop is having to be repaired so I'm not going to be able to update as often or post pictures.

Updating

I haven't been on here in awhile so I'm going to catch up on things. The last few weeks have been hectic, but thats how it always is around holidays. Thanksgiving was good but we just spent it with ourselves. Matt was offered his old job back with a paycut and demotion. We decided that he wouldn't go back. Financially it was a tough decision. The pay would have been double of what he's making now, but we feel like this is the right thing to do. The plus side to it is when one of their houses become empty we get to move into it and have free housing.

I think I may have already posted about this, but oh well you get to read it again. I have decided to do nursing for a career. My dream job would be in Pediatrics, prefably the NICU or PICU. I found out that in our area the local colleges only offer an associates degree for RNs. The college that does, we could never be able to afford. So I'm going to take baby steps. I'm planning on getting my CNA here soon. Not a big step, but a tiny one that will get me into the medical field. I think I want to keep going from stepping stone to stepping stone until I get to where I want. I'm getting antsy about going to work. I really feel like this is what I'm suppose to do.

The kids have been doing good. They are growing like weeds. Jack will be two in only 15 days!!! I remember having him, his hospital stay, his er trips, his first clap, everything, like it was yesterday. He talks now and is about halfway potty trained. My baby isn't a baby anymore. He's a big boy.
Zachary is talking like crazy and drives me crazy some days asking questions constantly. In five months he'll be four.Old enough to start pre-k.

Here lately I have been having many bad days and lots of nights where I don't fall asleep.I miss Stetson a lot. I dream about him a lot and I just wish that I could hold him again.